Working alone tonight!

WOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

So freaking happy I can’t even explain how happy.

Very good news.

Last night in the bake shop.

Gonna blast my music. Work at my own pace then just make random things when I’m done oh yeahhhhhhhhhh

nerdick-elk:

You ever look at someone and think “damn they are like the happiest person I know!”

Has it ever occurred to you that when they get to the safety of their home that they hide away from anyone else and take a razor to their skin? Cutting over old scars and some two-day-healed ones?

That they just lay in bed and listen to sad and angry music and cry. Do you ever realize that they probably cry themselves to sleep? Or cry to the point that they make themselves physically ill?

Has it ever occurred to you that the person sitting across the table from you laughing hysterically at something someone just said is laughing that hard because that is the only time they have relief from their pain? That when they are alone their thoughts are on the best way to end their life.

Do you ever really think before you speak? Do you joke or off handedly talk about death/depression/self harm? Because, even if it helps you, it might be the last straw for someone else. And when you are their at their funeral thinking “damn…..they were the happiest person I knew…” You’ll realize just how widespread depression is. And you’ll realize how much society is screwing with us by telling us to smile and suck it up and that it’s not okay to show that you’re sad.

If you’re going through a rough time I want you to assume that EVERYONE around you is. Then you’ll be more cautious to what you say. It can make a massive difference for some people.

You ever look at someone and think “damn they are like the happiest person I know!”

Has it ever occurred to you that when they get to the safety of their home that they hide away from anyone else and take a razor to their skin? Cutting over old scars and some two-day-healed ones?

That they just lay in bed and listen to sad and angry music and cry. Do you ever realize that they probably cry themselves to sleep? Or cry to the point that they make themselves physically ill?

Has it ever occurred to you that the person sitting across the table from you laughing hysterically at something someone just said is laughing that hard because that is the only time they have relief from their pain? That when they are alone their thoughts are on the best way to end their life.

Do you ever really think before you speak? Do you joke or off handedly talk about death/depression/self harm? Because, even if it helps you, it might be the last straw for someone else. And when you are their at their funeral thinking “damn…..they were the happiest person I knew…” You’ll realize just how widespread depression is. And you’ll realize how much society is screwing with us by telling us to smile and suck it up and that it’s not okay to show that you’re sad.

If you’re going through a rough time I want you to assume that EVERYONE around you is. Then you’ll be more cautious to what you say. It can make a massive difference for some people.

(Source: nerdick-elk)

I am fully aware of the fact that I am using the program known as “Missing e.” I do not need a reminder every time I open this site that I am using said program. “Missing e” is actually not invading my privacy. Tumblr is. I have received that message when I’ve been on a computer that does not have “Missing e” installed.

I would greatly appreciate if you would stop sending me that pointless message. For the hundredth time, I understand that I am using a program that makes your site better. A program you did not create. Maybe if you fix your site to add some of the features that “Missing e” has, I may consider uninstalling it. Until then, I am happily going to continue using “Missing e.” 

Yours Truly,

Proud Missing E User

(Source: sandsunsurfbeachbum)

Naww. (: He’s so fucking adorable. He snores. haha. :D

I wish I could have recorded what he said to me earlier. Made me feel so fucking good about myself…..

He’s amazing.

Y MUST U MAKE ME TRY TO BE HAPPY WHEN I WANTED TO BE SAD?! EKHRJNFEDSM

Y U SUCH A GOOD PERSON?!

flyhome:

We love you just the way you are.

Thank you for that. It’s been a while since I had any reason to randomly smile. Now all I have to to is think of you and your silliness and cuteness and I instantly smile. My grandma thinks I’m high. -.-

I like that you’re so sweet and that you text me if I fall asleep first saying you’ll talk to me in the morning even though you know I sleep in if I can. And that you text me when you get up. (: Makes me feel good. That someone cares enough to say hi to me when they get up. You adorable stud muffin. 

:D!

Dunno what the dancing has to do with blushing. But I’m so so happy right now. (:

We usually wait until like a few days before Christmas to put the tree up. So I said we should put it up tonight or tomorrow while he’s still here. Hopefully we do so. It’ll be fun and it will make me happeh in the facial area.

I’ve always been treated and told that I’m useless and pathetic. I just want for once to wake up and be genuinely happy. I don’t want to have to fake it for the sake of others. I hate having so many thoughts of killing myself or just dying. I hate all of the people that have ever contributed to my sadness. I can’t remember what it’s like to be happy. I really can’t comprehend how ANY one can be truly happy with their life. I try so fucking hard to be a good person. I try to be nice to everyone because I know more than most how hard life is and how a simple smile or kind gesture from a friend or stranger can keep you living another day. I work my ass off to be good. I know I’m not a bad person. And any person that says I am really is just a liar. I never retaliate against those that have hurt me. I just stay back and take it all. No matter what it is.

Why is it that even though I do my best every fucking day to be good to everyone, I can’t have happiness? I want more than anything in this entire world to be happy. I wish happy was a gift you could give. It’s be the only think I’d ever ask for. But it will never happen. I will never be lucky enough. I envy everyone that is happy.

I am alone. I am sad. I hate myself. I think I’m stupid. I hate my life. I just have so much sad in me. I don’t think I will ever know true happiness. 

And no one will care. My family will act like it never happened. Like I never just told my dad off and how he really makes me feel. Most friends wont know. I have a couple trying to console me. But im just another sad girl in this sad world.

Boohoo we all have our problems don’t we? That’s why I try to help. So people won’t feel like I do. I would never wish this much pain on anyone. Not even my father.

You’re all:

Then you develop it or see it on your computer screen and see how bad it actually is:

Then people who are in love with your photography see it:

Then the people that don’t think photography is art make fun of it:

If my uncle is going to be the one that’s bringing her to the meeting place:

Then when it’s time to say bye to him:

If my aunt and cousin(s) will be at the meeting place:

When It’s time to say bye: