Don’t.

Please don’t.

I swear someone loves you. It could be me or someone in your life but I promise that I at least care. I knowthe kind of pain you have to be in to want to give up.

I understand what it’s like to be hurting so fucking badly that the only way to end the pain would be to kill yourself.

I know the pain that drives you to self harming.

I understand it.

Please PLEASE don’t give up. Not today. Not tomorrow. Not ever.

Come to me if you need it anon or not. I will never judge you.

But I swear to you that I care about what you’re going through.

Just don’t give up.

My first brother has gone back to school, recently got a new apartment, and is looking to break into a new career.

My second brother is about to take a test that means hes like verified in another language or something. idk. But he’s talking about moving on to another school and doing things with his life.

My third brother is off in Belgium right now studying nero science in a work study.

And me?

I’m a cashier at a grocery store not in school trying to prevent myself from killing myself every other day.

I’m running out of reasons to live. I don’t fucking know what to do an I’m completely terrified.

trying to be more confident.

so

boobs.

I had a dream that I took a blade and just did one deep slice up my arm.

All went black.

Noises were muffled and confusing.

I saw this light purplish light.

I heard glass chiming.

My body laid on the most comfortable surface I’ve ever touched.

Then I woke up.

I felt pain in my body.

I heard annoying noises in the house.

Felt my uncomfortable bed.

Cried because I wasn’t at peace anymore.

I’ve been stashing pills again…..have enough to kill me…and if not at least a coma….

Help help help
The thoughts are becoming unbearable. These pills will make them go away for good. Someone convince me why I need to stay on this god forsaken planet any longer. Because I’m alone with a handful of pills with no reasons why.

Okay I really don’t want to be single this year on Valentine’s day.

And fuck even if I am single I just want a Valentine that I can give all of my attention to.

So, if any of you have single guys or girls that you know that are looking either send them here or give me a link to them. If anything I can just have a new friend that I’ll force to be my Valentine.

:3

Help me out okay guys?!

Pleaseeeee.

I’ll love you forever.

(Source: nerdick-elk)

I hide under my blanket when I’m sad.

So still really sad today and kind of regretting throwing away my pills.

Which yeah.

I threw out my pills go me but I think I’m gonna cut because I really really need to do something.

Wanted to take a picture of myself…..but I’m in my room with the light off and…well…you can figure out the rest for yourself.

My manager LITERALLY harassed me out of my previous department.

Today she told someone else in that department, THAT I AM GOOD FRIANDS WITH, that she is requesting a transfer to a different store.

BOMB FUCKING SHELL OF MY DAY.

I’M SO FUCKING MAD ABOUT THAT. BUT I COULDN’T BITCH BECAUSE CUSTOMERS AND NEW POSITION AND YEAH.

BUT I SWEAR TO GOD IF THEY DON’T LET ME BACK IN IF SHE TRANSERS I AM GOING TO BE 100% MORE ANGRY THATN I AM RIGHT NOW.

(Source: nerdick-elk)

FOR TODAY AT LEAST.

I GAVE INCORRECT CHANGE ONCE. WAS TWO DOLLARS SHORT BUT THE MAN WAS NICE ABOUT IT.

AND A FRIEND OF MINE TOLD ME I WAS ABOUT TO GIVE HER A 10 INSTEAD OF A 5.

THANK GOD IT WAS A FRIEND.

AND PEOPLE WERE RELATIVELY NICE AND PATIENT WITH ME. THE ONES THAT WERE KINDA IMPATIENT WERE THE ONES THAT HAD A LOT OF PRODUCE SO I HAD TO LOOK UP ITS CODE AND YEAH.

BUT THEY WEREN’T MEAN.

AND THE PEOPLE WORKING WITH ME WERE SUPER NICE AND LAID BACK.

SO. I’M A CASHIER.

(Source: nerdick-elk)

I work in a super market. I WAS employed in the bake shop of said super market until today. Today I start front end (cashier.)

I was moved from bake shop because of how I was being treated by my department manager. The store manager thought it would solve all of the problems.

So I start front end today. And I’m nervous. I’m leaving right after I post this because I work at 12.

Shit.

Okay.

Bye.

(Source: nerdick-elk)

Working alone tonight!

WOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

So freaking happy I can’t even explain how happy.

Very good news.

Last night in the bake shop.

Gonna blast my music. Work at my own pace then just make random things when I’m done oh yeahhhhhhhhhh